Wednesday, June 17, 2015

New blanket....

Finally ...., have spent every night throughout this week to put together all the squares and crochet edge around my new blanket. OOOOHHOOOOOO !!! here it is finally finished. Just need block a the bit for it I blocked it before the edges too. The design is simple granny square , I think I mentioned it previously that I was not aware of the term granny square for this design. When I first created a scarf which is still lying with me…this was a project I submitted for my graduation class in the year 1974. i become nostalgic as soon as i got sight of my first granny square scarf.

 i did some math  while putting colours, like black,light grey, aqua, orange and greay yarn for one and then,aqua,light grey and black for the other 

here it is completed.


Saturday, June 13, 2015


This project was pending  since long .
I was making .....crocheting a collor for my niece's dress it was a laborious project that need attention and the work with thread is really tiring.

 its finished now !!!!!!!!

My daughter' poems got published in Nikat the first literary magazine of Hindi which is being  published from UAE

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Monday, June 8, 2015

CORNERS OF MY HOUSE AND Some inspiring quotes

 I love having a sparse and simple bedroom, it helps me relax and feel more peaceful.  
This cotton bed sheet with patchwork ……….I have had the patchwork sheet forever while living in hostel. This one above was picking out by my daughter at Panipat when she attended a conference there………….I think some two years back.

A few things organized on my night stand. 

The checkered sheet above I remember picking it our with my daughter at Vardha Ashram……I think in 2012. mY NEIGHBOUR , MY AUNT IS SITTING .WAITING TO ACCOMPNY HER FOR EVENING WALK..........


"Freedom is actually a bigger game than power. Power is about what you can control. Freedom is about what you can unleash." -- Harriet_Rubin

"Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life and don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. Most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become." -- Steve_Jobs

"Many of our fears are tissue paper thin, and a single courageous step would carry us clear through them." -- Brendan_Behan

"Nothing in life is to be feared. It is only to be understood." -- Marie_Curie

"Love is what we were born with. Fear is what we learned here. The spiritual journey is the relinquishment, or unlearning, of fear and the acceptance of love back into our hearts." -- Marianne_Williamson


Saturday, June 6, 2015

Legacy of good heart

 When I thought of myself(when I was 12) I remember the words of my village friend who used to say I never met girls like you people (me and my sis), people of our village usually praise use for our behaviors and whatever they look in us.
During our long stay in our village when my father posted to Jirhat, Assam, we lived a village life and enjoyed that life a lot.
Although my Grandfather was a man of great values and respected by the villagers , he was asocial worker, had a big farm and like my great grandmothers who distributed lots of alms to all the nearby villagers during  chhappania-akal-1899-1900.
So I can say we people a legacy of having good heart …………..

'The good heart which is the fruit of virtue is by itself a great benefit to humanity. Mere knowledge is not.'

To begin, a few definitions: virtue - (n) a quality of character that contains in it the choosing of goodness or good acts; a vital aspect of good (as opposed to evil). good - 1.(n) an act of kindness or performance of some charity 2.(adv) to be pleasing and behave in a manner opposite of bad or evil. Knowledge - (n) to have a certain intelligence regarding any number of subjects, whether innate or enhanced by studying.

Granted, these definitions are mine and are assuredly not correct by Webster standards, but they will aid in a more thorough understanding of the following thoughts. in regards to the above quote, i concur that knowledge alone is not enough to make significant or lasting change when the subject is humanity and the goal is positive change in that subject. Some may argue that significant change has occurred with the knowledge of a miser, who has no interest other than his own at heart. A counter-argument is posed that this 'significant' change is not really significant at all when compared to change that occurs when knowledge is combined with goodness. Here, the littlest change could be multiplied exponentially if performed by someone with the interests of humanity at heart. Undoubtedly, this heartfelt individual includes like-minded people as well, which only furthers the benefit to humankind. As for the first part of the quote, when read initially, I disagreed with the statement 'good heart'. I do not see evidence that the human heart is naturally good. We are constantly struggling to be kind, to forgive, to include others, to be thoughtful, to give up our share of the cake. On the other hand, it is quite a simple thing to become upset, to hold a grudge, to be selfish, to indulge ourselves. or perhaps I speak only for myself. that said, after considering the remainder of the quote, i see that it does not imply that the heart is good on its own, but that a good heart is a result of virtue. Virtue contains good - it is not a product of goodness. It is the virtue of a person that leads to the good deeds that are done, rather than virtue flowing from the natural good of a person. That is not to say virtue is easily come by. on the contrary, it is a characteristic that must be honed and guarded against the temptation of cheating, selfish ambition, greed and the like. But when it is cared for and regularly practiced, much good comes of it and benefits those who come in contact with it. and this is virtue of itself. When this virtue aids in the creation of the heart intent upon good, and is combined with knowledge, then there is the great possibility for remarkable change to occur. Knowledge on its own is weak and goodness, though powerful in isolation, can result in the saving of humanity if used as a catalyst for knowledge.

This is a response of mine to a quote given to me by a fellow volunteer. Please feel free to leave comments, arguments, or suggestions. 


Friday, June 5, 2015

Gall stone

I was suffering pain under my liver and dignosed gall stone 2-3 years back .
Today i came to know that 
St. Benedict
Also known as
  • Benedict of Narsia
  • Benedict of Norsia
  • Benedetto da Norcia
  • Founder of Western Monasticism
 is the patron saint of civil engineers and :
* against gall stones and several other diseases

St. Benedict is said to be the founder of western monasticism, born at Nursia, c. 480 and  died at Monte Cassino, 543. Benedict was the son of a Roman noble of Nursia, a small town near Spoleto, and a tradition, which St. Bede accepts, makes him a twin with his sister St. Scholastica. Benedict founded twelve communities for monks at Subiaco, Italy (about 40 miles (64 km) to the east of Rome), before moving to Monte Cassino in the mountains of southern Italy.

Benedict’s main achievement is his “Rule of Saint Benedict“, containing precepts for his monks. It is heavily influenced by the writings of John Cassian, and shows strong affinity with theRule of the Master. But it also has a unique spirit of balance, moderation and reasonableness (ἐπιείκεια, epieikeia), and this persuaded most religious communities founded throughout the Middle Ages to adopt it. As a result, his Rule became one of the most influential religious rules in Western Christendom. For this reason, Benedict is often called the founder of western monasticism.`


Thursday, June 4, 2015

Mending for life

Look at him he is darning the dresses that got cuts by moths or got any damage done with various reasons.
last week i had made my shirt patched by him and took this photograph

 when my daughter was a kid she accompanied me during  my visits to his shop to darn dresses.
I think that was the reason she wrote this poem on him ............

रसूल रफूगर का पैबंदनामा By विपिन चौधरी

फटे कपडे पर एक जालीदार पुल सा बना  
कपड़ों का खोया हुआ मधुमास लौटा देता है वह

जब रसूल के इस हुनर को खुली आँखों से देखा नहीं था
तब सोचा भी नहीं था
और तब तक जाना भी नहीं था
कि फटी चीजों से इस कदर प्रेम भी किया जा सकता है

खूबसूरत जाल का महीन ताना-बाना
उसकी खुरदरी उँगलियों की छांव तले
यूँ उकेरता है कि
देखने वालों की
जीभ दांतों तले आ जाती है  
और दांतों को भरे पाले में पसीना आने लागता है

घर के दुखों की राम कहानी को
एक मैले चीथड़े में लपेट कर रख आता है वह
अधरंग की शिकार पत्नी
बेवा बहन
तलाकशुदा बेटी
अनपढ़ और बेकार बेटे के दुखों के भार को वैसे भी
हर वक्त अपने साथ नहीं रखा जा सकता  

 दुखों के छींटों का घनत्व भी इतना
कि पूरे उफान से जलते चूल्हे की आंच भी
उनके बौछार से एकदम ठंडी पड़ जाए

माप का मैला फीता
गले में डाल
स्वर्गीय पिता खुदाबक्श की तस्वीर तले
गर्दन झुकाए खुदा का यह नेक बन्दा
कई बन्दों से अलग होने के जोखिम को पाले रखता है

बीबियों के बेल-बूटेदार हिजाबों.  
सुन्दर दुपट्टे,
रंग- बिरंगे रेशमी धागों,
पुरानी पतलूनों के बीच घिरा रसूल

उम्मीद का कोई भटका तारा
आज भी उसकी आँखों में टिमटिमाते हुए
संकोच नहीं करता
और क्या रंगीनियाँ चाहिए मेरे जैसे आदमी को
इस वाक्य को रसूल मिया कभी-कभार खुश
गीत की लहर में दोहराया करता है  

अपने सामने की टूटी सड़क
किरमिचे आईनों
टपकते नलों
गंधाते शौचालय की परम्परागत स्थानीयता को
सिर तक ओढ़ कर जीता रसूल
देशजता के हुक्के में दिन-रात चिलम भरता है

उसने अभी-अभी
अपनी अंटी से पचास रुपया निकाल रामदयाल पंडित को दिया है
और खुद फांके की छाह में सुस्ताने चल पड़ा है

सन १९३० में बनी पक्की दुकान को
बलवाईयों ने तोड़ दिया था
तब से एक खड्डी के कोने में बैठते है
और इस कोने को खुदा की सबसे बड़ी नेमत मानता  हैं

खुद के फटे कमीज़ को नज़रअंदाज़ कर  
फटे कपड़ों को रफू करता रसूल
दो दूर के छिटक आये पाटों को इतनी खूबसरती से मिलाता है
की धर्मगुरु का मिलन मैत्री सन्देश फीका हो जाता है

किसी दूसरे के फटे में हाथ डालना रसूल बर्दाश्त नहीं  
फटी हुए चीज़े मानीखेज हैं उसके लिए

इस चक्करवयुह की उम्र सदियों पुरानी है
एक बनाये
दूसरा पहने
और तीसरा रफू करे

दुनिया इसीलिए ऐसी है
तीन भागों की विभीत्सता  में बंटी हुई  
जिसमे हर तीसरे को
पहले दो जन का भार ढोना है

क्रांति की चिंगारी थमानी हो
तो रसूल रफूगर जैसे कारीगरों को थमानी चाहिए
जो स्थानीयता को धोता-बिछा कर  

फटे पर चार चाँद टांक देते हैं 

Tuesday, June 2, 2015


 माह का पहला दिन धरती और अंबर का मिलन दिवस माना जाता है। सच कहें तो फागुन के बाद और सावन से पहले लड़कपन और यौवन का कुछ-कुछ अंश लिए आषाढ़ ही जीवन की उन वास्तविकताओं को उकेरता है, जिसमें तपकर मनुष्य का जीवन उद्देश्य प्राप्त करता है।

थोड़ी-सी कसक लिए मौसम की गर्मी और कुछ ठसक लिए साल के बौछार की पहली फुहार केवल यथार्थ के दो भिन्न पहलुओं को चित्रित करती है, बल्कि जीवन के कैनवास पर विचारों के एक्रेलिक रंगों से 'पुनर्मिलन' के मुहूर्त को सजाती है।

यही तो वह दिन है जब 'जेष्ठ की रोहिणी' की तप्तता को मृग की बौछार संतृप्त कर देती है और प्रकृति हरीतिमा से सुभाषित होकर मानवीय जीवन में केवल आशा का संचार करती है, बल्कि 'धरांबर' की दूरियों को नजदीकियों से समेटकर कालीदास की कल्पना को साकार भी करती है।

प्रेम की एक पूरी कविता है का माह। जब प्रेम का साक्षात स्वरूप अपनी प्रिया से बिछोह के पल अकेले में गुजारता है। यहां आषाढ़ में 'प्रेम' के स्वर और इम्तिहान दोनों दिखाई पड़ते हैं।

यूं तो पूरे गर्मी में धूप और बादलों में द्वंद्व चलता रहा, नौतपा के आसपास तूफानी हवाओं, सावनी घटाओं और भादों की बारिश का रंग नजर आया। बादलों का साथ पाकर लू के थपेड़ों के बीच हवाएं बौरातीं और इतराती रहीं, लेकिन ग्रीष्म में बिन बुलाए मेहमान की तरह आने और अपनी करने वाले इन बादलों को अब अपना रूप दिखाना होगा।

वैसे बीते कुछ वर्षों में आषाढ़ दगाबाज हो गया है। कभी-कभी वह सहमा हुआ भी लगता है, पर उसकी दगाई और सहमने में कहीं हम भी हिस्सेदार हैं। शहरी जीवन और उसकी जरूरतों ने प्रकृति के साथ उस पर भी बहुत अत्याचार किए हैं, उसकी अगवानी के रास्तों को बंद कर दिया है।

आषाढ़ के आगाज के दिन केवल प्रकृति के सौंदर्य भर को देखने से कुछ नहीं होगा। उसको बढ़ाने, उसके अनुरूप बनने, रसास्वादन करने लायक खुद को बनाने का संकल्प भी करना होगा। आषाढ़ी उत्सव पर यही कामना करें कि प्रकृति ही नहीं जीवन में भी प्रियतम और आषाढ़ साथ-साथ आएं। तब देखना आषाढ़ का यह रंग बहुत खूब होगा, बहुत हसीन भी होगा।
स्रोत: आ ढ़  
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